Runeasi Runner Analysis - Coming Soon ...
Well, it's that time once again and it only feels like Amsterdam was 5 minutes ago, but here we go again ...
The week in numbers ...
Miles ran:
Gym visits: 0
Chocolate eaten: 1 bar and one white creme egg
Alcohol drunk: lots, i was at a party
Weight: 11st11lb
It's Monday.
I'm hungover (again).
I'm not drinking this week.
I'm pretty quiet with work, couple of early appointments and then I decide to go for a hangover curing run. Plan was slow and easy and it became a progression run starting at 8:17 mile pace and ending at 7:15 mile pace.
Home, shower and then fall asleep on the settee.
Wake up and hangover has gone and feeling good.
Busy all morning, Tuesdays are always a little crazy and then nip into Whitley in the afternoon and then home for some more work.
In the evening I'm off to the club and being sensible and running with C team for the next few weeks, nothing to be gained from running with B at the moment.
It's rolling 7's and me and Graham both in C, we start with a 1 min rep and me and G at the front, then easy 2 mins and then into the 6 mins and again me and G pushing from the front and Cara coming with us. Back to an easy 2 and then we've got the 2 and 5.
I stay at the front and Cara comes alongside me, G drops back a little and me and Cara just push on, we start each rep way too fast and then settle into C team'ish pace. We get to Tynemouth Priory and wait for the group and then we're off again heading back. This time it's 5 mins and it's a downhill start so naturally we go way too fast but we're commited now so what the hell, let's just go with it.
Coming back into Whitley and I heckle Natasha which is always fun and then we're done. A really enjoyable session and a few easy miles and I'm home and another 11 miles done.
Home, shower, no wine because I'm not drinking.
I've got the morning off work and got a massage booked in at lunchtime, that's me getting a massage not me giving a massage although I am also doing that today.
Out early for a run and an enjoyable 6 miles listening to the Wu-Tang Clan. Then home, shower, lunch and work.
I'm back on the noodle and mushroom diet at the moment. The 2 weeks I had out injured meant I put on a few pounds and need to sort this. Now some might say the lack of running is less my issue and I should really sort my chocolate consumption but I say to those people 'fuck off'.
I like chocolate.
Anyway, my massage was nowhere near as painful as a few weeks back, my hamstring is totally healed and Manchester is well and truly back on albeit probably a little slower than was initially hoped for as I've missed a few key sessions and my head's gone a little.
In truth my head's gone a lot, I'm ignoring it and just getting on with training as I don't want to get into this conversation with myself, I find it's much better to ignore it, lie to myself and always keep busy to stop me overthinking.
I lose my confidence very easily with my running, if my mind wanders a little it can all just fall to pieces and I convince myself I can't do it. I've had some terrible races when I've stood on the start line and told myself how shit I am. Equally every now and again I have an amazing run because I feel good but those days are very rare.
Basically I've missed 2 weeks running, so in my head that means it'll take me 2 weeks to get back to where I was and another 2 weeks to get my speed back and that puts me about 2 weeks before the marathon.
I really need to learn how to switch my brain off.
I could go into a big long diatribe here about my lack of confidence, feeling I've never fulfilled my potential in anything, always quitting when it gets tough, never feeling worthy, etc, etc.
But fuck it.
I'll just keep running and eating chocolate.
And drinking wine.
But no wine today because I'm not drinking this week.
I haven't got back to doing thresholds since being injured, I've been a little wary to tackle them as the sessions are always long and whilst not fast, they do take a toll and I'm concerned if my hamstring is going to go again it will be on one of these sessions.
Today is a big one on the plan but I haven't done the build up to it over the last few weeks so even for me this would be idiotic. Instead I decide to go for 5 x 1 mile at threshold, I then decide to increase this to 6 reps and before I leave the house I've rejigged it to 8 reps. Sensible Simon try's his best but twat Simon is never far away.
I head out and do a few miles warm up towards Tynemouth and I feel really sluggish and tired. I've been really tired a lot recently and not sleeping well. I finish my warm up and see Greg and Suzanne out running and then its time for rep 1. The plan here is to sit between 6:55 and 7:05 mile pace for the mile, usually this is no problem but right from the off today I can feel it's not going to happen.
I start the first rep heading to Tynemouth, I'm on pace and then slow a bit and feel knackered but decide to keep going and see what happens. I run until my watch beeps, it seems to take forever and then beep, beep, beep and I'm done. First rep in a very hard fought 7:04
2 minute recov and I start the second rep. This one is heading slightly downhill and even so it feels worse than the first one. I push on and just miss my target in 7:09
At this point I start to question if doing 8 is sensible, I also start to question if doing anymore is sensible and resist the urge to go home. Rep 3 and I'm heading towards Whitley and it's a 6:49 and then followed up with a 6:53
I'm half way through and on my recovery have a chat with Suzanne who assures me I look pretty strong but I tell her I'm struggling and I make the decision here to drop to 6 reps. Rep 5 feels like running through treacle and my legs just don't want to move, done in 6:58 and I'm amazed I'm still on target.
Final rep and then I'm going home. Rep 6 in 7:00
I jog to the sandcastles, have a chat with Suzanne and Wendy and then walk with Wendy to the co-op where i buy a massive bag of white chocolate buttons and eat them on the way home.
In the evening it's club and I run with D team for some extra miles but keep it steady.
Again no booze and I've had my chocolate quota for the day.
I'm really busy today, hoping to get out for a run but in the end it doesn't happen.
I have loads of appointments and when I have some time I'm just too knackered and instead just potter about and clean the house and cook tea for the kids.
Tomorrow is long run day once again and once more I'm just not feeling it this week. Friday night and I have one small glass of wine and that's me done for the week,no chocolate, no Friday night kitchen disco, just one glass of wine and early'ish to bed.
Up early to be out by half 6 to get some miles in before parkrun.
Once again I'm not feeling it today
Up early as Murphy was crying, he didn't want anything he's just a massive fat baby that cries.
Had some malt loaf ready sliced for breakfast, made a cup of coffee and went to eat my malt loaf.
My malt loaf was gone.
Murphy smells of malt loaf.
Greedy fat pig.
I eat a piece of toast and an apple and head out, the plan today is about 19 miles, so 16 and then tag on Whitley Parkrun at the end.
I start and head towards Seaton Sluice, it's cold but the sun is on the sky which is a nice change. Right from the off this run just doesn't feel great, it's not hard, I'm not wrecked, I'm just not enjoying it and already thinking ahead to the fact I'm out for hours and don't want to be.
I've got the usual playlist of high energy music playing but it's not helping. I just run, switch off my Garmin screen and keep going.
I'm bored.
I'm running and I'm bored. I take half a gel and then chuck it as it's disgusting and the morning drags on. Then I'm heading back towards parkrun and desperate for the toilet, this is weird as I never need the toilet when I run. I toy with the idea of pissing myself just to add some excitement to my morning but I'm the end decide going to the toilet on Watts Slope is probably wiser.
I get to parkrun a few mins early and checking my Garmin I see I'm ahead of schedule which is a bit odd as I feel a bit crappy and have all morning.
Parkrun starts and I decide to just go through the motions to finish. I spend the entire second lap just thinking about having a beer, every now and again something gets into my head and I can't think of anything else, usually it's a bottle of coke or chocolate but today it's a cold beer. All I want is a beer, the sun is shining and I want a beer.
Yes I know it's not even 9:30am.
Ben catches me with about a mile to go and this is enough to spur me on so I can beat him. It's the highlight of my entire morning and I'm pleased when I finish that I've done 19 miles and averaged 7:57 per mile. Not as far as last week but quite a bit faster, pace felt fine, distance felt fine but I just didn't enjoy a single second of it.
Well I enjoyed beating Ben.
Walk to co-op, buy some beer.
Young Mark spots me walking through the co-op carpark drinking an early morning beer. I feel slightly dirty about this but equally don't care.
Saturday night and it's my mother in law's 80th party at The Dome. I've been put in charge of the music, I'm drinking wine, I'm with my family and I'm in charge of the music.
I'm in my element.
It's a great night, I keep it super sensible with lots of 80's music and then as the night draws on and my wine consumption increases I get easily influenced by Poppy and the next thing we're blasting Sex Bomb by Tom Jones and then we're into LCD Sound System and The Prodigy.
I blame Poppy entirely for this.
I walk home drunk and eating cake.
Last night was fun.
I drank too much, I danced loads with my kids, I played loads of 80's tunes and finished the night off with The Prodigy and LCD soundystem and everyone seemed to have a great time.
I wake up feeling surprisingly sprightly. Well sprightly might be a slight exaggeration but I don't feel like death which is good. No running today, I feel like I need a rest day.
So it's the big shop, housework and a bit of a lazy day.
Then in the afternoon Gail goes out to see her mum and I have a lovely afternoon snooze for a couple of hours.
No pub tonight, no alcohol and no chocolate.
A slightly better week in terms of diet but my running has felt off so with 4 weeks to go we will see what next week brings.
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